I ain't as good as I once was, but I'm as good once as I ever was

I find this story interesting. Throughout the entirety of the story, I was under the impression that the woman was an older lady who liked to sit back and just watch other people. But, then she started referring to older people in a manner that implied she was younger than them. This caught me off guard. So, like always I started reading between the lines and realized that perhaps the woman is in fact old on the outside, but still young at heart. I was under the impression that this woman's career relied on her face and outer appearance. As soon as that was compromised by old age, she lost her job. However, this woman still has yet to cope with this fact. Throughout the entire story, she is trying to figure out who she is deep down in.